unsaid feelings

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songs~

Aishh tetibe je lately ni kemaruk lagu2 melayu.. terngiang-ngiang masa nak tido, masa main badminton, masa bawak kereta n masa meeting.. huhu.. kenapakah? haha mesti laa sbb lagu-lagu tersebut sedap didengar dek telinga ku ini.. haa so here goes the video~

First video- OST Ombak Rindu.. tetebi terada crush kat Aaron Aziz.. okeh frankly speaking this man is super HOT kot.. uhuk uhuk uhuk.. but my hubby HOTTER (chehhh ayat cover~ ;p) 

Second video- Yuna, Terukir di bintang.. this song is so so sweet :) just like liyana jasmay's song... hehe

xx

CINTA BERSATU - liyana jasmay

I found this song is just sweet.. so sweet.. okeh, saya sangat suka lagu ini..

;)

Di matamu ku berharga
Kau perlakukan aku
Lebih dari mencintai dirimu
Di dekatmu ku merasa
Bahagianya aku
Dapat ruang cintamu
Hanya kamu saja
Yang mampu begitu
Tulus
Mengerti aku

Kau sempurna bagiku
Tak kurang sesuatu
Kau terima apa adaku
Ku sempurna bagimu
Tak kurang sesuatu
Cinta bersatu

Gayamu
Sifatmu
Cara mencintaiku
Yang membuat diriku jatuh cinta padamu

well, i dedicated this song to my hubby dgn ucapan i love u 

 xx 

Bilateral Meeting @ Berjaya Hotel Langkawi

Salam..

For the past last week, I've attended Bilateral Meeting at Berjaya Hotel, Langkawi.. Leaving my little ones behind sob..sob..sob.. :( Well, the meeting went well, i must say.. n the trip and also chocs hunting were superb..

Day 1 of the meeting- ermm our team (livestock combined with Halal team from JAKIM) went quite good.. very fruitful discussion n ada MoU sign semua at the end of meeting.. I headed back to Hotel around 7.oopm since our discussion ended quite late.. The food was so so yummy n we ate like crazy.. We meant for me and a few of my colleague.. haha then, later that night Malaysian Co-Chair; Dato' Mohamad Azmie bin Zakaria belanja us dinner.. yeaahhaaaa!! (seronok since dinner not provided..cheh!)

Malaysian delegations

Australian delegations

Menu kat tmpt nih BESAR gile.. sape cakap tak nampak tak tau laa.. anyways, thanks Dato'!

The next day, I went for a trip.. joining all delegations to various places.. but the best place was when visiting KILIM Geopark Forest.. Naik bot and bawak jalan2.. perghh seriyes best.. mmg jakun hahaha.. those are the pictures..

Enjoice~

ini laa rupanya bot itu

berlepas ke Gua Kelawar

jeti gua kelawar..dalam tuh sgt cantik n kelawar semua tengah bertenggek tido.. wow!

NICE!! :)

Eagle watching.. dorang bg eagle makan ayam.. this one is the smallest eagle kot.. mengikut kata org bwk bot, ada 3 jenis eagle n yg plg selalu dtg makan kat situ adalah eagle yg kecik nih..

pulau yang berbentuk kasut.. nampak tak? seriyes terpegun skjp.. actually bnyk lagi pulau yang ada bentuk like bentuk penyu, muka org dll.. semua tu natural tau.. bukan buat2.. Subhanallah!

Rumpai laut.. very very slimy

Then, lps penat menziarah dan melihat-lihat, kitrg dibawak makan kat restaurant terapung.. mmg best makanan dia.. sgt sedap! gambar takde sbb sgt kebuluq n makan dengan dasyatnye hehe.. after makan, we have tour visit to dorang punya ladang ikan.. ikan drg seriyes besar2 belaka.. sangat menakjubkan! (haaa amek ko.. BM power! eceh!~) 

Those pictures are about ikan... ~~

Ikan pari yang manja-manja anak tunggu makanan

ikan pari lagi dari bawah.. can see dia punya mulut kan? haha cute sangat

Eel.. yewwww geli sesangat

Dan banyak lagi tapi tak sempat nak amek gambar sebab bb tetibe hang plak.. sabar je laa haha.. after makan kitorang semua balik ke hotel sbb malam ni ada dinner kat tepi pantai.. nak tgk sunset.. gituh! romantika sungguh! haha.. 

tempat dinner.. tepi pantai.. sangat menenteramkan body and soul :)

tengah set up BBQ station

benda-benda yang nak dibakar nnt huhu

live band

dan gambar2 sunset segala semua tak sempat tangkap sebab tengah sebuk makan.. Burp! Alhamdulillah :) The next day plak ada Plenary Session where all subsectors kena bentangkan apa yang telah dibincangkan masa mesyuarat masing-masing.. yawn! haha n after that, we were free like a bird!! time to do chocolate hunting at Pekan Kuah then flied back to KL.. No pictures available dah sebab tak sabar nak balik jumpa si kenit ku.. AISYAH!! rindu bangat sehh~~

ta-ta :)

Sampai je KL ada driver dah tunggu n terus soh driver tuh bawak laju sikit (sikit je tau.. ) sebab tak sabar dah nak jumpa Aisyah.. lain macam rasa rindu tu.. seriyes tak sabar nak bau kemasaman dia.. haha

Rindu terubat.. Yeay!

I MISS YOU!!

Above video shows how Aisyah's walking so fast... hahah yeah right, pakai bendalah tuh mmg laa cepat hehe.. btw, the reason i write this post because i'm going to Langkawi starting today until this Thursday, attending Meeting with Australia delegations.. The saddest thing is that i'm going to miss my little Aisyah a lot.. :'( Dia kene tinggal with her daddy which means her nenek Kajang yang akan jaga.. I hope they take care of my Aisyah very well.. 

Today, when I sent Aisyah to the nursery, as usual laa dia akan nangis n this time her mama also nangis.. Ish, tak tau nape berat hati sangat nak tinggal dia.. Boss, please laa, saya tak mau gi Langkawi!! plssss.. (if only my boss can hear this..) 

Ok peeps, i need to go now since kene attend meeting kat Jabatan Perdana Menteri this morning and my flight at 7.50pm tonight.. Please pray for Aisyah guys.. Semoga dia dilindungi dari SEMUA perkara-perkara yang tidak baik dan semoga dia menjadi seorang hamba Allah yang solehah.. Amin....

Dear Aisyah,

Mama loves u so so much.. please take care of yourself kay? jangan nakal-nakal and jangan manja sangat.. hehe.. tido bebaik, baca Bismillah tau.. I'm missing u already laa sayang.. :'(

Guys, pls pray for Aisyah's well-being... 

Thanks~

xx

Eczema..??!!

Haaa baru laa btol.. mulakan dengan Bismillah @ dengan nama Allah :)

For the past 2 weeks, Aisyah is having this kinda weird rashes behind her back.. I thought it was a nappy rash so i just applied some cream.. unfortunately, the rashes seems to spread to her knees, her neck and cheeks. I was pretty worried since the rashes are getting worse..

Early this morning, I decided to bring Aisyah to KPJ Specialist for a check-up. The Doctor said that she has a very very sensitive skin and is having Atopic Dermatitis also known as Eczema :( Well here goes something about Eczema;

What is Eczema?

Eczema (also called atopic dermatitis) is a skin rash that usually appears before age 5. In babies it tends to show up on the cheeks and scalp, but it may spread to the arms, legs, chest, or other parts of the body. The rash might look like dry, thickened, scaly skin, or it might be made up of tiny red bumps that ooze or become infected if scratched. Scratching can also cause thickened, darkened, or scarred skin over time.

Causes?

Often inherited. allergens or irritants in the environment (such as pollen or cigarette smoke) can trigger it. Less frequently, it can be triggered by allergens in your child's diet – or in your diet if your child is breastfeeding.The rash can also be aggravated by heat, irritants that come in contact with the skin (like wool or the chemicals in some soaps, fragrances, lotions, and detergents), changes in temperature, and dry skin. Stress can also trigger a flare-up of eczema.

Treatment?

•  Bathing and moisturizing
•  Allowing skin to breathe and stay cool
•  Soaps and cleansers
•  Prevent scratching
• Avoiding triggers;

1. Rapid changes in temperature can make eczema worse, so try not to let your child get too hot and then cool quickly, or vice versa.
2. If eczema seems to be triggered by environmental allergens, such as seasonal allergies, you might want to consult an allergist for tips on how to deal with these allergies.
3. Keep your child away from cigarette smoke.
4. Try to identify and minimize any stressors that may be triggering the eczema. Do what you can to help your child deal with stress

muka tahan ngantuk hehe

 :)

Shiro My Hero

For the past 2 weeks, hubby decided to join a cat competition at Giant, Kota Damansara.. setelah meniliti setiap ekor kucing yang ada.. akhirnya, Shiro my hero yang dipilih untuk bertanding.. hahaha.. sebab2 pilih si Shiro ni adalah kerna; dia laa yang agak2 lawa sket n dia tak garang.. sangat friendly.. the bonus point is bulu die lembut, kembang and tebal.. haha.. 

inilah shiro.. muka garang tp hati lembut ;)

okay, disebabkan shiro yang dipilih so here goes his biodata;

• Name: Shiro (my hero tuh saja je nak sedapkan lagi..it is rhyme though haha)
• D.O.B : May 2011 (lebih kurang sebaya dgn Aisyah)
• Sex: Male, Intact okeh.. sang suami nak buat baka.. huhu
• Mood: Manja.. rasa mcm nak lepuk jer haha.. makan minum semua bersuap.. mengalahkan Aisyah je kucing sekor ni 

3 days before the competition, Shiro was sent for grooming at U R My Pet House (ermm not recommended since they don't even groom Shiro, just mandikan sahaja Sigh!) Then, we decided to sent Shiro to our vet clinic at Kajang and the result......was SUPERB! Dr Wong, who always entertain Shiro, is an intelligent vet plus a very skillful groomer.. Shiro seems so handsome and the fur looks sparkling white n feels so soft.. haaa baru laa rasa confident nak g bertanding haha.. kalau tak, dah terpikir-pikir nak angkat white flag je..  

Shiro pose model; ala-ala lateral view gituh

 That day (Saturday, April 7th 2012), berangkat laa kami anak beranak ke Giant tersebut.. Lepas solat Subuh je, terus gerak.. Aisyah pun tak dimandikan sebab takut tak sempat.. Salinkan baju Aisyah n then terus poooff ke Giant.. Sian jugak laa si kecik mama nih sebab dia mamai mamai lagi dah kene angkut dah.. hehe but, during the competition, she was behaving like a good kid; tak merengek dan nangis2 sangat, provided that biskut n her susu ada.. Bravo sayang! :)

sian anak mama, kene angkut pepagi.. Aisyah tengah tido dalam kereta; on our way to Giant, Kota Damansara

anak mama dengan baiknye duduk dekat kereta dia hehe

Back to Shiro~ 

ada angka giliran lagi okeh.. Macam amek SPM hehe

There, we have 3 rings meaning 3 judges; According to the three judges, Shiro is a nice, beautiful cat but he is too reserved.. Dia dok dalam cage diam je, tak mau main, mengiau pun tak nak.. Pandang muka judges pun tak mau.. Sabar je laa.. n to make things worse, he felt asleep throughout the competition..!! arggghhh, bertuah punya budak! Haip! Penat je my hubby beli bulu ayam train dia b4 cat comp.. Bukan hubby jer train, Aisyah pun siap train lagi si Shiro nih.. tinggi harapan kat ko Shiro oiii.. haha... Judges pun beria2 mengagah si Shiro nih dengan harapan dia bg response tp dia buat dek je.. mmg kurang asam kan? haaish, lantak ko laa Shiro not-so-hero anymore... 

First Ring

Second Ring

Third Ring

The result are as follows; First ring: Second place (I was so so happy siap melompat-lompat kecil-kecilan kat tepi cage sambil senyum kemanisan); Second Ring: Third place (err okeh laa since dia mmg tak aktif lansung, siap nak bergaduh dgn kucing sebelah lagi..huhu) Third Ring: Fourth place (okeh laa.. stil top 5) haha.. so Shiro, ko dapat laa no 2, 3 dan 4.. kira OK laa since ko tido jer kan sepanjang masa.. However, we managed to go into second round but since Shiro is stil sleeping.. memang tak dapat ke Final laa haha.. Overall, I am happy to participate in this competition since I've made new friends there and seen lots n lots of cute cats... meoww~

After maghrib, we went back home.. tired but satisfied.. Shiro plak bila balik je rumah, dia mula laa melompat, memanjat dan bermacam-macam lagi.. siap boleh main kejar-kejar dengan Aisyah lagi.. So, dapat disimpulkan di sini bahawa Shiro nih anti-social haha... 

Shiro said; "Ko ada?" haha :)

Bravo Shiro!

xx

Betrayal

Waaaahhh... dasyat nye laa tajuk kan? haha well takde benda panas pun just wanna share something that bordered me lately.. which i dont know why..  mood swingkah? huhu

Everybody has its own dark secrets which only you yourself know, rite? well, same here with me.. But, being a woman myself, i told my darkest secret to the one and only person i am supposed to trust, which can't be named here, obviously.. well let's call this person Q.. Q knows everything (mostly laa) about me.. and i even told Q my darkest secret which i hope that Q will keep and not reveal it to anyone in any circumstances..

BUT... (jeng..jeng..jeng..)

Q did tell someone and it shocked me to death.. i feel like killing myself right there when Q revealed it in front of my face! (yes, Q told in front of me.. nice huh?) i didn't know how to react or what to say.. i just.. shocked.. n my heart dropped.. i didn't cry but i keep my mouth shut while my hands were shaking.. :'( the person that Q told (let's call that person A).. A asked me whether i did that horrible disgusting thing and i admitted since i don't wanna lie anymore.. A was so surprised but A tried to sound calm (?), while i have nothing left to say.. Q said that he/she (gender must be kept silence too) have to tell someone because he/she couldn't take it anymore.. OH MY GOD!! i am so speechless.. i am broken-hearted..

"Dear Q, if u read this, u must know that, i trusted you so much and i even shared stories with you.. i never thought that u have so much guts to tell someone about this horrible disgusting things i did in the past.. i feel i've been betrayed by the person i care/trust the most.. the fact that u told A was unbelievable.. i have nothing left to say now, but i hope you are happy for what have you done or said..."

Readers, 

Everybody makes mistakes in their life.. and perhaps that person sudah bertaubat and sangat sangat sangat menyesal dengan apa yang dia buat.. so who are we to judge him/her? we are not Almighty, we are human being who constantly make mistakes.. Give that person a chance to change.. Give ME a chance to change! the horrible-disgusting-thingy I've done for the past 2 years have been buried and i will not dig it out again, which means i WON'T, i repeat, WON'T repeat it again.. so please, i beg you, please don't punish me for my past... as i am trying my best to be a better person each and everyday..

:'(

Aisyah at her NEW nursery day 2

Yesterday (2nd April) was aisyah's first day at her new nursery a.k.a school.. me n hubby sent her quite late since mama was not feeling well.. she was not crying at that time.. so i thought she might be ok since she saw some familiar faces around.. mist of the kids from previous nursery pun ada kat sana jugak..

But...

today, when i sent her this morning.. she's crying so bad.. sampai tarik2 baju mama dia n tunjuk tgn as if suruh i amek dia n jerit MAMa!! many times.. i was so touched.. :( rasa macam nak EL je terus n amek dia balik.. but, if i did that, nanti sampai bebile pun dia akan nangis.. takkan sampai kene berhenti keje kot..  so i kissed her goodbye and told her that mama will fetch her right after work.. n i kissed her again sambil berdoa dia cepat adapt to this new situation..

I really hope that the person who takes care of my baby will treat her nicely.. 

Dear my sweetheart Aisyah, pls adapt real fast kay? mama knows u can take care of urself.. I love you whole- heartedly sayang.. :) 

p/s* just called the nursery, ermm they said that yesterday aisyam minum susu tak sampai pun 2 botol n makan pun tak.. it worries me to d max.. n this morning dia nanges teruk sket :(( mama also wanna nangis.. serious sedih.. 

Ya Allah, pelihara lah anakku, Aisyah Jhan binti Fazaldad.. Amin...