CHANGES

Salam guys

Ermm actually nak tulis pasal Raya but tak tahu nak pilih gambar mana satu.. too many pictures and ikutkan hati rasa macam nak taruk semua je tapi malas laa plak nak tunggu loading lelama, so here goes the new entry about CHANGES in ME! (chewaaahhhh macam best je kan? =p)

To be honest,lately ni rasa macam nak jadi baik sangat. Takde laa maksudnya I ni jahat kan dahulu kala but boleh laa dikatakan macam hidup di zaman tak beberapa jahiliyah dulu. Especially masa study kat UPM. Maklumlah, pelajar universiti laa katakan. Sangat bebas and kemaruk sangat dengan dunia luar dan aktiviti sosial nye huhu. 

Well I came from a very conservative family, where my parent are so strict especially bab Agama nih. Not only my parent but also my sisters. (cayang korang ketat-ketat) Betol lah lagu Raihan cakap "Iman tak dapat diwarisi dari seorang ayah yang bertaqwa..." 

Me, I dont know why, at that time, remaja katernyerr, sungguh bersosial macam tak ingat mati.. But study tetap study okeh? 3 pointer mmg wajib.. Thanks to my beloved friends like Chedah, Henny, Intan, Ayu, Ihsan yang banyak membantu and juga senior2 yang sangat supportive.. Haha.. I went to clubs, not wearing a hijab of course, midnight movie marathon, hanging out at KLIA airport (kononnye study), having lots of so-called boyfriends and many many bad things. Disebabkan Allah masih sayang kan diri ini, banyak kali laa jugak kantoi dengan my sisters especially my elder sister and of course laa dia akan bagitau my mom.. My mom will cry and my dad will marah like mad, and i hate my sister at that time sebab tak sekepala and tak sporting. But as time goes by, especially when I have married and having my little princess, Aisyah, diri sendiri rasa nak berubah ke arah kebaikan.. Dulu satu jenis tudung je untuk penyamaran from my family, now, I have many tudungs beraneka corak dan warna.. And if dulu, I wore sleeveless and sometimes skirts now I have covered my body. Only to be seen by my mahram. 

Seriously memang susah kot nak pakai tudung and baju yang sopan buat pertama kali ke shopping mall or ke memana rumah kengkawan sebab rasa tak cantik laa, tak sexy laa, tak sosial laa dan lain-lain lagi.. Oh sungguh naive kan? Macam laa ko cantik sangat tak bertudung tuh? Macam nak lempang diri sendiri je banyak kali. Sampai selalu tanya my hubby I cantik ke pakai macamni (which means bertutup etc) and he always there to give me support and said,"U cantik je pakai apa-apa pun tapi lagi cantik kalau bertudung.." Chewaahh kembang bermangkuk-mangkuk sekejap..*wink* Eh tuh kalau mood dia baik, kalau mood tak baik sebab banyak kali tanya kan, dia cakap, "U nak tunjuk apa lagi kat org lain nih??!" Haaa *dush* amek ko sebijik kene kat muka... Haha but memang ada relevan nye laa kan..

Well if nak list kan semua benda yang tak baik, tak elok yang dibuat tatkala zaman Jahiliyah tuh memang banyak but buat ape laa kan? Let's that be history which is not going to be repeated. Insya Allah.. And I also think that berkat doa ibu bapa, sisters and kengkawan (kalau ada hehe) terbukaklaa hati nih nak bertutup penuh tanpa paksaan sesapa. Dan menutup aurat hanya kerana Allah SWT. Bukan laa nak tunjuk baik ke apa, but seriously I think I had enough of so-called fun when I was a student, and I thank Allah above for giving me opportunity to be a better muslimah. 

I pray everyday that I wont fall into my black-dark-night history again and semoga my Iman dikuatkan dan sentiasa diberi petunjuk dan hidayah oleh-Nya.. I cant thank my family enough for always there, giving me full support and never judge me based on my past. I love you guys so much! and I also hope that Aisyah will be a better muslimah than me, of course.. Insya Allah..

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